+–{ Falguni Khanna }–+

Healing a wound on a physical level or healing your heart, takes time. Somehow the outside wound has a way to heal quicker than the deeper wounds of our hearts. What do we do in situations like these?

Our old patterns and habits either take us back to the journey of addiction, ex: smoking, drinking or excess working (which we all, usually do, including me). In fact what we are suppose to do, is take time. Take time to allow yourself to realize that you are in pain. What we do, is run from that pain. We will do anything to hide, run, avoid that pain. But to allow that pain to flow through is very difficult for us. I am taking time out from my San Francisco world this weekend, cause i need some time to heal. Recently, my heart just crushed into more than one piece and i need time to heal. Old Falguni would want to drink alcohol and drown my sorrows in another man’s arms. But this time, i decided to change that pattern. I have decided not to drink, or go running to another man but instead take time to heal by being in the woods and by taking really good care of my mental and spiritual health. I am cooking for myself. I am surrounding myself with loved ones. I am working out regularly allowing old energy and old emotions and foggyness to dissolve away. I am making sure that I am taking best care of my body, mind and soul while I am healing. and that is the best gift I can give myself.

Before i would run, this time i have decided to stand and embrace all that i am feeling. Somedays, i start crying on the bus, and that too is fine. When tears roll down your cheek and you are filled with emotions, its better to let them out instead of  suppressing them. In Ayurveda, suppressing can cause dis-ease and i want to make sure that this time around, in my life,  I allow myself to BE.

I am not sharing all this so that i can get a pat on my back.. oh look, what a good girl Falguni is, but more like, so that you too can take advantage of the same wealth and results that i have achieved in my life. I too want to share this joy and happiness of healing and taking best care of yourself. And i hope this helps. Thats all…

I am realizing that falling in love with someone is a process.

First you get attracted to them

But then, once you have passed the "attraction phase", what do you look forward to? Answer I am getting from that question, you look forward to getting to know them and forming a relationship with them of who they are, what they like, dont like and why you would want to create a bond with this person? Its a process. And this process has stages. I dont know what the third stage is, but as i continue in my journey, i will let you know. Until now, i think i was stuck in the "attraction phase" of life. Now that I am growing older, I am feeling different about how i have previously looked at relationships.

Its nice to grow older There is an underlined joy, that I cant describe, only experience with getting older. I like it.

Change is so consistant and yet, we sit there trying to fight every moment of it. I got a chance to watch this movie, "The Peaceful Warrior", and in there they mention, 3 things in life to remember, 1. LIfe is change, 2. life is a paradox., and dont try to control it. 3. Learn to laugh at yourself…. and it sort of makes sense.

Easier said than done, but i belive its possible. If we all followed the above three,i beleive we would be walking Buddha’s. Dont you agree?

No, I am not Mexican or Spanish, but i just like that word, HOLA…. kind of cool… i think. I am actually from India, born and raised and a proper Indian daughter should always adress others with a Namaste……. but who the hell cares…… do you? Hola, Namaste…. they are all one and the same, when said with LoVe, warmth in your eyes, and a smile on your face…. Correct?